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📺 IWFGG | Do You Have a Right to Feel the Way You Do?





 

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Hello hello, ladies and welcome to another episode of Inner Work for Greater Good, my name is Emily Eldredge I am the creator of the ChangeLight System, the founder and CEO of ChangeLight.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: We have a community, we have a course private coaching all kinds of good stuff to support you.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In doing your inner work that accelerates your power to make a difference in the world, whatever difference, it is that you want to make that's what we're here for because we all have a purpose and a Truth, I believe that we are here to live.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And the whole point is to light up because when we load up we light up the world so so happy to have you all right so as always we talk about feelings here.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I want to talk today about this question of do you have a right to feel the way you do, do you have the right to feel this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This is pretty loaded but i'm going to give you some background about why this is even a question for me this week.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So i've had a situation over the past few months in which i've been there's a transaction that needed to happen.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In order for things to move forward with something in my life.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so, for the past few months i've been working with this person who supposed to provide me with information and legal documents and coordinate things for me, etc, etc.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: um Well, unfortunately, all along the way, and I dealt with this person before and there's been a lot of errors before, but you know what she's really, really nice and she's very sweet, and all that, so I you know I don't put up with it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But basically, this past couple of months, where things were really needed certain things, and they needed to be accurate.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: No mistakes, etc, unfortunately, there were just constant mistakes constant errors that I was finding so you know, a legal document would come into me and there'd be like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: A mistake on the date and there'd, be a mistake on the price and so i'd have to send it back that needs to be fixed.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I needed information about how to do this, you know certain activity that was related to this whole transaction.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And yet I couldn't get that information or it wasn't working with the right people.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: On you know when I finally did get this contract back with certain you know things that were fixed there were still are still other errors so and then ultimately.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: What was sort of most recent issue was that, when I finally the thing was complete I was actually overcharged, and so it was just this really aggravating process but here's the thing.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was not.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: fully aware, shall we say, of exactly how aggravated I was.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In the series of events so, as I said, it's like well she's Nice and well you know I sort of said to myself as just a little mistake here and there, will you know it's just a time you know to typo or Oh well, it's just this well it's just that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But over time as it's like two mistakes in the mail and then three mistakes that will be will document and then miss miss miss miss a constant pattern.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Finally, within about the last 10 days or week before this thing had to be done, I started to get.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: frustrated and irritated and aggravated, and so I talked to this person and I just said and I was very fun about it, but I just know it just feels like this has been very discombobulated disjointed very all over the place, and you know things need to be settled and the person.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: tried to tell me yeah but you've already got everything and it's all fine and i'm like but it's not because there were so many errors, etc.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so the point is that but meanwhile, you know, in terms of this person, you know other people who interact with her and.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know it didn't seem like other people were upset with her behavior so even this whole situation, the point is, it was a very frustrating time consuming time wasting frankly.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: aggravating situation in which is someone else could you know this, it sounds like you're taking up a lot of flack for this person, and I was.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But it took me a long time to get angry about it or to really feel finally feel that I was angry and unfortunate but the time I got angry it wasn't just like gosh i'm really upset he was like oh my God it's just what.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Like what enraged like so mad that I was having to call people close to me and be like, I have to just have to talk about this for like my blood pressure is going to go through the roof.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: There were a number of things that played a role in.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In sort of what what you know what ended up happening with me emotionally, but one of the things that I asked myself was do I have a right to feel this way and I think that's a really important thing to notice is when we are questioning let's say we have a feeling that comes up.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And we question consciously and unconsciously even have a right to feel this way I don't know if there are different ways that we do this to ourselves right it's like it's like well I don't know she.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This or three that puts it is this interesting sort of suddenly dismissive things that we can sometimes do ourselves that annoy your like it's like we're gaslighting ourselves, you know and basically making us.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: it's almost like trying to dismiss how we feel that even telling ourselves i'll speak for myself telling myself that I don't know what to do and it's really not such a big deal, so I don't really know that I thought i'm really angry, but very valuable right to this angry.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So I think when it comes to emotions here's my answer and then we're going to get into some of this stuff.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Number One.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Of course, you have a right to feel the way you feel.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Here there's several reasons why I say that one because.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: First of all, if anything, I would say it's, not even a question it's like it's not even about whether or not you have the right to feel this way it's more about what's the reality this is how you feel this is how you feel now are you 100% justified.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This is how you feel and the other thing too is we're going to get into like reasons why we feel a certain way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But this is how we feel so that's the reality so what's the point of even fighting with that reality will do, I have a right, whether or not you have a right, this is how you feel.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And the problem too with asking ourselves or do I have a right to feel this is that if we're having emotion coming up.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Then within that there's some inner struggle, or something that's causing some kind of stress or pain or fear or what have you inside of us, but then, when we ask ourselves, do I have a right to feel this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: oftentimes that actually can adds to the pain and the struggle, because we're questioning whether or not it's Okay, for us to feel the way we do is opposed to i'm feeling this way huh.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: What do I do with this, or I wonder why, and so I even want to take issue with this question just The fact of the question of asking yourself whether or not you have the right to feel this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that's something I want to look at also.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I think it's important for us to even quite ask ourselves why do we even ask ourselves if I have the right to finish right and I found that there are a number of reasons i've already kind of talked about what you know some of the things that I did to myself.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: One of them is that oftentimes and I realized in my case, this is definitely the situation often we've been taught to dismiss our own feelings, so why do we even ask ourselves the question of do I have a right to feel this way well because you basically been given that message.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That maybe you don't have you don't have the right to build the screen, so you start to ask yourself do I have a right to feel this way that can be one big reason and, interestingly enough.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Some circumstances came together that helped me recognize where that tendency for me comes from it, someone in my life.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I saw this person's behavior and how they behave towards me as I was dealing with this situation and I went oh that's where.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Okay, because the way they're reacting to me talking about this is the way I was treating myself, all the way along haha.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So this person it's not the thing we're actively dismissing my feelings, but they were trying to play a game and try to call me down, even though I wasn't really upsetting the moment it's like well but everything's fine now and well you know and.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: All this well well instead of saying gosh you know what this is frustrating you i'm really sorry and frustrated and I can see why you're so frustrated.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You see, instead of validating and honor and how he was feeling there was all this well you know that was not it'll it'll builder intended, but.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I realized that that was basically the what the way that personal is pretty me was the mechanism that I had internalized and was doing to myself so that's good thing to understand.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So we dismiss our feelings and when we've been taught to dismiss our feelings that's usually, when we ask ourselves if we have a right.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: to feel this way should I feel this way do I actually have a justifiable rational reason for feeling this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Another reason why we will tend to ask ourselves, do I have a right to feel this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Is because often because we can be in a situation where we're really upset about something maybe we're sad maybe we're angry, maybe we're frustrated maybe we're you know, whatever we have our emotional grieving we have our emotional reaction to a situation and yet.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Other people around us, are not having the same reaction.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so that's when it can cause us to question why we're question the fact that we're feeling this way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And question whether or not we have a right to feel the screen, or whether we should feel this way because will everybody else who's Okay, with the situation so.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I don't know, is it Okay, that I feel this way um do I have a right to know, especially if i'm you know.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Maybe it's the same situation happened to other people and get worthy only one who's actually having that reaction, it can really cause us to question whether or not we are, we are validated.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In having that reaction so which really important when you're noticing how you feel and you're noticing your if you have a tendency to ask yourself if you have a right, or even a reason for feeling that way.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know, or if you should feel that way that you notice why you're even asking yourself that question.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And is it because other people have questioned your right to feel that way other people have made you doubt.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Your right or your ability your your right, and your validity and feeling that way if you've been surrounded by situations where and this happens, a lot in family and family.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Family scenarios for example if there's a certain kind of abuse in the family.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And yet, and it's behind closed doors let's say, and yet to the rest of the world, everyone just thinks they're wonderful and meanwhile you're going to want this is.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: crazy, this is not our pain, or something awful happens, and then they just kind of moves on, is there nothing happened that was horrible that was terrible.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That that can be that crazy maybe that makes us think that we're, the ones who were crazy, as opposed to the reality that the situation is actually crazy and we're having a.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Very natural human response to it it's just the other people for their own reasons their own agendas or their own self protection they might be dismissing it or acting like it didn't happen for or diminishing.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: diminishing that it happened or or diminishing their own emotional reaction to it, so those are some things is.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Certainly the wrong section of my notes So those are some things to ask yourself about why we even question whether or not you have a right to feel you when in reality is you just feel the way you do.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So here's a better question is, why do I feel this way, so it starts, first with acknowledging.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: i'm feeling this way this is how i'm feeling okay other people might not be feeling that way other people might not be having the reaction that i'm that i'm having.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Other people may want to dismiss how i'm feeling or they may want to criticize me for how i'm feeling, but you start with going but what's the reality for me right now.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This is how I feel right or wrong justified or not, or whatever what's the reality this is how I feel.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so you start with what is, what is this and feeling anger and feeling grief and feeling sadness i'm feeling fear i'm feeling anxiety i'm feeling defensiveness i'm feeling whatever.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And you start with just acknowledging reality and accepting the reality, as it is and not questioning just owning it already and then it's about.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: sitting with it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: um I hesitate, because one of the other words I like to use is just parsing it out, but first I want to start by talking about sitting with it, you sit with him feel.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And when I say sitting with it, I mean you just sit and notice and go okay so right now i'm feeling this emotion, if you want, you might also be doing some other emotions So for me in terms of my situation is that I was feeling um.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was feeling anger at the person, but I was feeling anger anger that the details were not being dealt with appropriately.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was feeling.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: kind of more sort of compassionate towards her well, maybe she's having a rough time Okay, I was feeling guilty for being angry at her for not doing the job properly.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was feeling.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Anxious because this whole situation is taking up all this time and energy away from my work in my business.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And he was adding to my lack of trust that she was going to take care of everything and everything needs to be born in order for it all to go smoothly.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was feeling um.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I was feeling sadness about because I felt kind of.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Like you know just this is kind of sad to me that i'm in this situation where like I like this person and yet they're not doing their job and it's causing a lot of problems for me and for other people.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So it's a mixture of feelings and that's what I mean but sitting with it and just noticing what is because a lot of times when we're feeling you're feeling it's not just one, it can be a bunch of things.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And all of them can coexist simultaneously, this is also something important to really remember about emotions and feelings, sometimes we get too much into the either or well it's this or that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: It can be all at the same time, it could be grief and anger, it can be sadness and fear, it can be anxiety and defensiveness it can be all kinds of things at the same time.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so, for me, I sat with it and it's like okay what's going on and to be honest with you i'm still processing well I haven't really processed it fully um but then also another feeling that came to me was the light was like i'm justified with you know not defiant or just like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I do have a right to feel this way, and this is, you know this is for a reason, and then I also felt emboldened I guess i'm not an aggressive way but emboldened like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This is, this is, you know, and I can I can take certain actions to rectify this, and so, in this situation, instead of actually going to her superior After talking to her and really getting nowhere the.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Errors coming I finally talked to her spirit and I said, you know, this is not a paid, this is not a paid this situation and I love them all, I do that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I rarely ever do that, but this time it was like you know what this isn't getting fixed, so I need to.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because also I didn't want that to happen to someone else that's also one of my values to i'm like it's not just oh i'll just get through this and the bond it's like I also wanted to make I want to make it better for the next person.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that was something else that I felt sort of galvanized emboldened.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: To once I finally really honored that it's a big company be angry about this and there been a number of violations and i've got some confirmation I got some validation from other people that was helpful, but I finally felt very affirmed.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and very, very clear, so the point is there can be a lot of different feelings in there, and there can also be a lot of wisdom underneath that emotion and so what I always recommend that people do is you sit with it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You honor how you feel everything you're feeling.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And then, of course, with my work, I always encourage people to draw it out sit down and draw how you're feeling.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and write down how you're feeling and all the thoughts and all the you know all the beliefs and everything that's coming out just getting out of you, so you can actually see it for what it is, instead of it rattling around inside that's extremely important.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: At the same time um and at the same time also understand that how her feeling in this moment now.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And this was true for me in my situation is that your emotional reaction.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: made be pretty specifically to this situation right in this present day in this current moment this thing happened recently this thing happened and having this emotional reaction or response to it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So you may absolutely be justified in terms of you, having some emotions to our emotional reaction to.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The next question is, do you have a right to feel this way Well, yes, you may have a weight on quote or it may be sort of rational or justifiable that you would have an angry reaction to a situation, however.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Another question is is my emotional reaction in this circumstance i'm proportionate to what actually happened.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In that case, so, for example, if it's like well someone cut me off in traffic Okay, and if i'm like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: i'm freaking out.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know, you might be like okay someone cuts you off in traffic everything's Okay, but should you be freaking out and getting enraged and then going off and hitting other people with your part, now I mean.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So in that moment that reaction may be an overreaction for the specific circumstance, but in that case, then okay so then where.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Is the emotion, where else is it coming from it's not just from the situation, so this is that question why am I feeling the way I feel so as you sit with it and start to parse it out and.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: parsing it out as you go on some of it definitely absolutely this situation, it is a rational response to the situation.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But then really use or something else is getting triggered.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Could it be that there's something from my past Could it be that there was something that had happened to me when I was a kid.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Could it be that there's something that's sort of it's been building up in me for a while.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Could it be that it's like it's not just that this guy cut me off in traffic it's that there's all this other stuff out of my control happening in my life, right now, that is making me absolutely like losing my.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Mind so that suddenly I gotta cut me off in traffic and I like you're really what else is going on, and so, in that case so you're honoring the emotions, but then you're also kind of parsing out where you're coming from.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And, for example, in my case you're aware who was coming from was yes, the situation and the sort of continual aggravation you know just like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Little issue push little issue with a little issue, none of them are life threatening but adding them up there, just like this is an insane pattern that i'm constantly having to fix and deal with So yes, there's that but in terms of the rage, that I was feeling.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Part of it was because, for one thing I had not been honoring my feelings, all the way along I kind of you know I if I were to kind of go back.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: A little little to talk about red flags I wish I paid attention to those red flags, but we were so good at dismissing them for me it's like you know little red flag.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Flying or you know little little you know, but I just kept dismissing my own feelings so by the time this actually Dr such a place where it's like Okay, this is beyond ridiculous and I wasted hours at a time on this situation then.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: it's like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: it's like by the time I finally, it was like i've been pregnant sort of pressing that emotion down but it finally exploded, so it was building up without me realizing this building up and building up and building up and building up until until I was just like.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Mind you, that doesn't mean I want my screen did anybody because I don't do that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In these situations, I definitely don't do that um but the point is.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That it built up to such an extent that I ended up actually my emotional health momentarily was just not good, because i've been denying how I was feeling all along the way, so that's another element, and then, as I mentioned, from childhood.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Where did that come from it came from that tendency to sort of dismiss my own feelings and gaslight myself came from childhood.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And it came from certain people in my life, who treated me that way not maliciously but just because we're all trying to call me down and when we get upset or whatever.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Maybe because they were actually dealing with their and feelings, but the point is, is it taught me to then have that mechanism inside myself.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that all of a sudden about really, really huge and also, it was the it was the anger it feeling gaskell also by this woman who paid for it Oh, but everything's fine but everything's fine and what that everything is not fine.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so it's been feeling gas lit and when it reminded me to be gasoline as a child so here, you know they're all kinds of things that see what i'm talking about so first thing out.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So you might be having a feeling in the moment you're angry you sit with it notice the anger notice the other films draw them out write them down really honor that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And then asked why so again going back to this it's not about whether or not you have to wait to you feel the way you feel.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The question of do you have the right it's more like is this level of reaction justified for the situation and, yes, hundred percent absolutely maybe.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And at the same time, it could be that it's gotten so bad because it's triggering something from before, because you really haven't been auto loans all along the way, those can be some scenarios that's what happened for me.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That really just honoring how you feel and looking at it from those different perspective, something else, I want to add to is that when it comes to exPowers, because that's often what I bring this back to and we're talking about in this case we're talking about anger.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Or at least that's what i've been talking mostly about is the anger and looking at exPowers, all the Expos can feel all the different dimensions, so you can have Wounded that feel sadness and grief and anger.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and frustration and aggravation, especially when they haven't been heard, they get really upset about that, and if their feelings aren't validated they get really upset.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You can have a Controller that's angry or that's.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Usually Controller won't feel something so much like belief or sadness, but when it's worked with when I work with a Controller, it might end up revealing that.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: When it feels in the week you know it's trying to control everything because really it's just feel so sad for you or it just doesn't want you to feel sad sad when you're sad, etc.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Defender similar thing, it can be anger on the surface or defensiveness are blocking or superiority or arrogance or what have you.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But then underneath it can be, because it feels really sad or inferior or because it doesn't want you to feel the grief that's underlying all of this because it doesn't want you to feel anxious so it's trying to make you feel more confident.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So just so you understand when you're noticing those feelings inside and you're noticing that different feelings are coming up, you may notice to.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: probably a little bit, you have also different exPowers inside of you that are fueling those feelings and that are creating that kind of dynamic.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so you can have the Defender who's really upset about the situation and the injustice to the violation.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But you can also have a Controller who's trying to you know, keep everything under control and try to do with your anxiety, you can have the Wounded who's feeling very sad and hurt and dismissed and ignored.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: or it's grieving, and so the point is all of those powers can be there within all of those emotions and so it's about being present with all of those.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Trying them out honoring their feelings and like I said, you know the top That was the title of this talk was do you have a right to feel how you do and that's where I kind of go.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Well, once you kind of remove that layer, then you really can just be present, with the reality, what it is that you feel and honor that fully because that's where the pieces.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The pieces, not in trying to decide whether or not your reaction is justified necessarily the piece is in honoring the feelings and allowing them to process through and also allowing the wisdom that they're trying to tell you.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: To come forward as well, and ultimately that's what the anger in my situation was doing is trying to get me to realize that I was over compensating for somebody else's issues and somebody else's mistakes.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And that I was allowing this person's mistakes to take away from what's really important for me that I need to be doing.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Rather than having to you know deal with all this stuff and then we'll also was happening to was it was making me super anxious, because then I wasn't trusting that things were getting taken care of and so that was adding to the emotional.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: disruption as well that we're making those making the full process so difficult to say so, there was wisdom and my.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: anchor was trying to get even notice what was going on and to stop dismissing my friends about it and to take action on it, which I ultimately did hasn't been resolved, yet I don't know what this what the.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: solution is going to be or the outcome is going to be.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: we'll see but the point is that once I did that he said he was really important it's like it was bothering you bought we bought a new, but once I actually did something about it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I took action and I talked to the appropriate people and that got you know gave them all the information and I, and I so far about the response that I was looking for that that was.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: justified given the situation then it's like I felt better you see to the wisdom was trying to get through to me.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I hadn't been listened to it, so there is wisdom in your emotion so it's not about whether or not you have the right to feel how you feel you feel how you feel honor it.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: notice it sit with it Drawing Out Process it see what comes up you're going to learn a lot about yourself a lot about the situation.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And you're going to feel so much better process okay Thank you so much for listening i'm so happy to talk to you.

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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And, as always, my name is Emily my website is ChangeLight dot world, you can take the course and learn how to draw out all these struggles and all your gorgeous light and you're gorgeous power okay so take care, and I will see you next week.


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