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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Hello hello, and welcome to Inner Work for Greater Good, where I teach you changemakers anyone, if you are passionate about making a difference in the world, I teach you inner work.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That accelerates your power to change the world, my name is Emily Eldredge I am the founder and CEO of ChangeLight and I have an online Community where changemakers gather people are trying to make a difference in the world mission driven leaders, etc.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Where they gather to learn this inner work and learn the techniques and learn the discoveries.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And really work on themselves, so that they can be happier and healthier and more whole and at peace and then bring that to their work.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: In the world outside, as I see it, our world's ills and humanities else, or because we are sick, we are ill, we have traumas we have wounds, we have triggers and Defense mechanisms.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That cause us to show up in ways that aren't entirely healthy, I mean let's get real.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know, right now, as i'm speaking recently there's the whole Ukraine, Russia situation going on, and we see all these other conflicts we see these problems in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And you know I I would argue that a lot of that is because we are not healthy on the inside the people who are making the decisions that people who are causing the conflicts.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and others, you know we all in different ways, have things that we need to heal and that we need to heal as a whole as humanity.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so that's why my mission is all about accelerating the healing of humanity in our planet through teaching changemakers mission driven leaders impact drivers.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Change to teach us to teach you all inner work that accelerates your ability to do that and to do that with happiness and joy and peace.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and greater effortlessness you know because I think a lot of times we make it too hard, I mean it is hard work, what we do, but at the same time we don't have to be so stressed and miserable doing it.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that being said in today's conversation and today's show, I want to episode, I want to talk about the top three struggles.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: of people who are trying to make a difference in the world who are trying to change the world changemakers who are mission driven leaders.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Those of us who feel called to make a difference in some way or another, and we're all called in different ways, and we are also called you know we might feel called you know sort of.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know, called by something outside of us are called by something internally, a lot of times I what I talked about that was that internal drive, which is your Truth.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: to guide you to really make that difference, but however you feel called and whatever you feel called to do.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You are what I would call a changemaker, and the reality is, those of us who are really passionate about making a difference, we have our struggles.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I can't even tell you how many people i've met who, if you saw them on the outside you'd be like wow they're so smart they're so put together they're so successful they're running this organization everybody thinks they're these fabulous people, etc.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And yet on the inside they're not they're a mess they're unhappy they have so many insecurities and wounds and it manifests in terms of their personal relationships or in terms of how they lead their people are trying to lead their people.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Or, or in terms of sometimes their private habits that they engage in that are not healthy.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because they don't know how to deal with these inner struggles they're so focused on trying to make a difference, they don't know how to deal with this.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so that's why it's really, really important that we focus on what are those inner struggles well, there are three.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Typical inner struggles that I see among people and I include myself, those of us who really are passionate about making a difference in the world and trying to make a difference in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The first one i'm going to call not enough notice the second one is not receiving help, and the third one is lack of self care and even just self consideration.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So, in terms of not enough enough notice the first one we're going to actually divide that into two types of not enough business.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And, as I shared these struggles see if you can identify with these and see if you see them and other people, you know who are also trying to make a difference in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: When it comes to not enough there's this nonsense of not enough notice that you're never doing enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: you're never accomplishing everything that you think you need to accomplish you're never quite Reaching the goals the bigger visions that you might have you're like i'm here to have this impact.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: it's like it's always out there in this vision or this this, this is the big impact, I really want to have.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And it feels like you're never doing enough to get there, so that's another sort of bigger scale personally is that not enough like.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: i'm not getting there yet, I feel like i'm spinning my wheels or I feel like, no matter what I do, I still don't get there, but there's even on a daily basis, not enough notice.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Always this sense of i'm not doing enough i'm not making enough of a difference there are so many problems in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I can just never seem to fit you know figure it all out or help everybody that I want to help, I always feel like i'm falling short I always feel like there's always more to do, and I can never do it so there's that sense.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Of not enough notice you're never doing enough it's like even, no matter how hard you work, no matter how much of a workaholic.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You might be or how many systems, you have in place, etc, it still feels like you're not doing enough because there's always some.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Fire you got to put out or there's always some trauma happening in the world there's always some disaster or there's always you know.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: people's like people are always falling apart around you let's say so just want to honor that so that's one that's first of the top three struggles that i've seen that's a big one, is that sense of i'm never doing enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I think a lot of that comes from the fact that as changemakers and those of us who are called to make a difference, we have this drive.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: We may not even know where it's coming from but it's just this drive, I have to make this difference, and so what I think can happen is that the drive, you know that that's that.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The impulse that that need that you know just passion that focus of like here's what I need to do and here's the impact, I need to have and here's the change that I want to reflect in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: can also kind of come against up against the reality that you know, we also have human needs, you know I, we also have we need to sleep.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: We need to eat, you know we can't always be on a constant treadmill of doing doing doing, and so what happens is too is that we just feel like we've never we've never quite getting there.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And also that that drive can be so powerful that it's not really taking into consideration the fact that we're human if that makes sense, you know where it's just like I just know, I have to do this thing.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so it's almost like it's never satisfied that drive because you always feel like there's more you can do there's.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Always people, you need to help and there's more you need to do to create all these changes or affect all of this impact and everything in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that's the doing not enough notice the other day other half of the number of the first not enough miss is being.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that a lot of changemakers feels like they internally, they are not enough they're not strong enough they're not smart enough they're not working hard enough they're not.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Educated enough they're not you know a good enough person, they are not funded enough, they are there they're not.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: they're not worthy is a lot of times what's going on there is that feeling that I am not good enough to affect this change or I am.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know I don't know that I can actually do this I don't know that i'm worthy of this I don't know that I have all everything that it will take.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: For me to make this happen, I want to share this quote and we just find the quote real quick from where is it this quote for oh there it is.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This quote from Mother Teresa where she says, you know, of course, the famous Mother Teresa was such an amazing humanitarian and had such an impact on people all over the world her focus was.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: On orphans and sick people in India, and she had you know centers there and then they they grew all over the world and i'll just give you a little background, on her i've read a couple of books about her.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: From what I recall, and you might be able to correct me on this, but she first she was a nun and she got her first calling at the age of 19 I believe.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And she said as Jesus had called her you know she'd been called to do this, what she ended up doing in the world and and she was she was incredible at what she accomplished.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And she had such a huge impact, but at the same time I love this quote, that she says she said, I know, God won't give me anything I can't handle.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I just wish he didn't trust me so much.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And what I love about, that is, it kind of speaks to that sense of in wave of the doing and the big it's kind of the you know you know I OK, so I know that god's given me as much as I can handle and never will give me more but.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I don't even know if I can do, like, I wish you didn't trust me so much I don't even know if I can handle all of this, I don't know if I can really do what I feel when i'm feeling called to do.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And also, I will say this to something that's not very well known about Mother Teresa is she was in a dark night of the soul for about 50 years.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And if you're not familiar with what is the dark night of the soul is it's basically and i've been through one and you may have been through one as well or multiple i've been through I call it like i've been through a dark night of the soul.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And then i've had like my mini dark night of the soul, but basically mine was back in 2009 and I talked about it on this show before.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But the dark night of the soul really where it's like you completely lose all faith you feel disconnected spiritually emotionally just.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: It feels like you're just in this darkness and there's no light and there's no way out and there's no future and there's no purpose or sense of meaning.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Believe it or not, Mother Teresa was in a dark night of the soul for about 50 years for decades, and this is shown by her journals her letters.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Or you know her journal writings or letters to priests and bishops and cardinals and others, and she wins which she shared that, in which she felt this is the way she saw it is she felt that.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Jesus had abandoned her like she originally had this this you know luminous calling to do what she ended up doing, but then over time that went away.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: She stopped feeling that and so she felt very forsaken she felt abandoned and she really, really struggled with that I have to say that's one of the things that i'm kind of blown away by her.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Aside from everything that she accomplished, is the fact that she could still keep accomplishing those things, even as she felt so empty inside.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that she still was that, like for other people everybody talked about how she would just radiated this joy so somehow she was able to radiate this presence well at the same time feeling really empty and dark.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And and sad inside, and so one of the things she really struggled with was her worthiness her sense of value.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Her sense of you know she felt abandoned ship that maybe she hadn't done enough, where she wasn't enough and so that's a really extreme example.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Of what I would say about the not enough notice of the being but you know you may think about the things that you feel called to do.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and consider whether you feel like you actually have all of the power, you need to do those things to uh to be that presence in the world i've also shared on the show before that I.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: deeply struggled with that in the past, where I didn't feel like I was capable of actually doing the things that I know that i'm called to do, and my calling just so big, and so I was always really like it's like imposter syndrome.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You may have heard of that before where oftentimes imposter syndrome gets triggered when you're given let's say a position.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: let's say you know you're in an organization and you are, you know are given a particular role you're promoted to a particular role or here.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know nominated or you you assume a particular leadership position that a lot of times what happens is it can trigger that imposter syndrome, because while some parts of us may feel worthy.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: of being in that position and worthy of having that much power, if you will, there are other parts of us that don't a lot of times and i've talked about the Wounded.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: A lot of times that's because of those inner Wounded that feel like that they're not big enough or you know powerful enough to do this, it can also be because of the Controllers those inner critics.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That tell us that we're not good enough or undermine our faith in ourselves.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so what happened, the problem, though, is that you end up as a changemaker you can be in a position where you're really there to make a difference, or.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I mean it can even get triggered by like let's say you're not accustomed to speaking on stage, very often you're asked to speak on stage about something.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That you're like I know I can talk about this, but I don't know I don't know if i'm good enough, I don't know if i'm smart enough I don't know if i'm pretty enough I don't know if.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That blah blah blah blah now all these insecurities get triggered so it's that sense of not being enough can be one of the really, really big as part of that not enough miss number one.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Really really big issues with changemakers with those of us who are called to make a difference in the world, those of us who are trying to make that difference.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So not enough, this is a big one, be aware of how that shows up for you in terms of how you feel and know that you are not alone I you know I I.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Still struggle with it i'll probably struggle I probably has you have issues with this, you know for for most of my life because, as you step into higher levels in your work or your visibility, or what have you.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: It triggers these feelings of not enough, maybe you're not doing enough you're not enough for that position or you just don't have what it takes.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Just know that this is part of the process, but at the same time, I would argue that you can also heal those parts as I always talk about those are a lot of times it's those exPowers that are keeping us feeling small and not good enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so we can actually work heal those and and I talked about this, a lot of course the drying up process healing those parts, so that you don't struggle with that sense.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: of not being enough, but also of not doing enough because that's what also those inner Controllers can do as well as they can criticize us and make us feel like we're never doing enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: or they can push us and push us and push us we're relentless the and make us feel like, no matter what we do we're never good enough we're never doing enough so that's how the wounds and Controllers.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: play into the struggles as changemakers so that's the first one, not enough miss the not enough missing what you're doing and not enough miss in who you are in your being.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Number two not receiving help difficulty receiving help and support, there are a lot of reasons why as changemakers and.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: US mission driven people, those of us who are really passionate about making a difference there are lots of reasons why we struggle with with with receiving.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: For one thing, a lot of times like if we if you feel like you've got this you know, this is what i'm here to do or This is my vision, this is my mission.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Is we can tend to sometimes think well i'm the only one who can do this or other people won't get it, so I just have to do it myself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Or we can also come from situations in our past where we didn't we didn't we weren't supportive like maybe in our family units, we really actually didn't receive the support we needed.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so we can tend to view, like everything unconsciously, a lot of times from that perspective of thinking well no one's going to help me with this, so I just have to do it myself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I will just throw in here a little bit about the American culture, I don't know about other cultures, as well as I know about the American culture but.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: We are steeped in that that sense that we have to be strong, we have to do everything ourselves, and what that can often do, though, is cut us off from that willingness and even that vulnerability that's required.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: to receive, but something else, I want to add to I there was this wonderful quote I wish I had it in front of me, but I remember seeing this like post on Facebook and it was by this woman who talked about.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that the whole attitude of like I have to do this myself and not receiving help and and.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: yeah just hyper independence, I think, is what she called it, that that's actually a trauma reaction.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That when we're so hyper independent and I can do it all myself and I don't need your help and again this this, you may not be conscious that you are actually doing this, or have this attitude.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: It can be an unconscious thing so it's good to just kind of tune in and notice when is someone offering help and you're not receiving it when you really could receive it, and it could be very helpful to you.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But the point is that that hyper independence can cause us to get can be rooted in trauma.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: can be rooted in the trauma of again if you felt like you were abandoned when you were a kid or you were very alone or you were left to fend for yourself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Or you felt like nobody really listened to you or honored how you felt and nobody really showed up for you supported you when you needed them is that hyper independence can come from that as well, so again that's speaking to the whole.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: changemaker thing of not receiving help because maybe on some subconscious level we don't think that we're actually going to get it, and I want to throw that in there as well, a lot of changemakers I know.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Usually, a lot of times what is fueling them is their own trauma it's because they've experienced something awful happen in their lives, and so they want to make it better for others.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so it's all this focus on i've got to try to change this for other people and and and are driven by like okay i'm doing this thing for them.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that's a one way street isn't it it's like i'm helping them.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But they don't allow it to come back they don't allow the two way street and here's another reason why people often don't do allow the two way street, and I have done this before myself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: The fear of disappointment we're afraid if we do, open up and we are vulnerable enough to allow other people to help us that we will be disappointed.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that those people won't do what we want them to do where they won't do it, as well as we want them to do it, or they won't show up the way you know, whatever.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And again, that can often be because of our trauma our wounds, because we have been disappointed before and disappointment it's funny because I feel like the word itself just sounds kind of like.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: not like to me it doesn't sound like a very emotional word, you know disappoint oh i'm disappointed like it sounds sort of you know kind of not that intense kind of oh honey.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: disappointment is a big one.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because it's what keeps a lot of us stuck.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: or a lot of us in that place of hyper independence or a lot of us, you know just trying to just trying to do things ourselves because we're afraid or 90 or not connecting with other people are not opening ourselves to relationships, etc.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because we're terrified of being disappointed and the reality is we can't control what other people do we can only control what we do.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so it's even also an issue of control if you're constantly trying to avoid disappointment.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: it's like you're trying to avoid that feeling of course because it's painful but you're also trying to control the situation so that you're trying to keep things under your control so that you don't risk.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Having to open up risk being disappointed risk having other people not showing up for you, but, of course, as we know.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: When you keep that from happening, what actually ends up happening is you end up feeling very alone and not receiving the help that you need.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Think about the vision that you have I I interviewed this wonderful changemaker.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And she's the the I do inspiring interviews of changemakers in my community and change like community and so she's for this month of March and she's an amazing psychologist and Morocco, and she does.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: creates mental health tools and trainings and Apps for teachers and young people.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: She does amazing work, but the point is she she made a really good good comment she goes, you know I used to think that I had to do everything by myself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I had to do it all alone, because I was the one with the vision, etc, and then she said she kind of sat down with herself and she goes, you know what.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that's not rational and I love this you put it that way she's like I realized that is that's actually not rational.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because she's like I think about the things that I want to create and and then I look at it and I go wait and I alone i'm supposed to do all those things like by myself, with no help.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so that's what helped her shift out of this of the some of the hyper independence of some of the thinking she had to you know.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Do it all herself, I want to throw in here another term savior complex i'm not saying, she had the savior complex, but we can also have a savior complex, we want to be the hero.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And if we allow other people to help us, or we allow other people to be part of our vision or what we're doing then we're not going to be the hero, with much so that can be another thing too, so the point is that.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: This whole thing of not receiving help, there are a lot of reasons why we don't do that a lot of that is subconscious I will also throw in here that the exPower that's most associated I found with hyper independence.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Is the Defender Defenders tend to be the ones that build the walls, you know they're, the ones who tend to want you to feel strong.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know and and independence and do your own thing more than the other two for the for the most part, I mean that the the.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: yeah the the Free-Spirit can sometimes be like that, but the point is.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That your Defender can be that part of you, that is trying to is preventing you in its desire to protect you from disappointment.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: It can also be actually preventing you from connection and from the vulnerability required to actually open up and receive other people's help and support and achieving your mission and here's The other thing too that it took me forever to realize.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You may be a changemaker and you're here to make a difference and you have a vision at all okay i'm gonna put this way I am this I am I was like this for many years.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I just assumed everybody else was like that, too, I just assumed everybody else wanted to do their own thing, and they have their own visions and missions and they were trying to accomplish.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And I never it never occurred to me that.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: No actually some people, just like to support others with the vision and the mission and it took my mother saying and at one point just sort of matter of fact, one day she goes well you know, there are people who actually just.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: They don't need to have their own thing they actually just actually like to support people like you and I was like well, I mean it was like my head spin around like beetlejuice i'm like what really.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: wow Okay, so I just want to say to that when we allow others to help us when we receive their help we're actually giving them joy.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: i've received help I resisted receiving all kinds of help throughout my life and, but when until Finally I realized that you know what first of all, I was denying a gift that they wanted to give me.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And that it was bringing them joy to give that to me that, by denying that gift whatever and what, whatever form it, it took I was actually denying them the joy of giving it.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And then I thought about the joy that I get from giving to others and helping others in different ways.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: and imagine if someone said no to me i'm like, but I want to, but I really like Well, no, no, because they didn't feel they deserved it or what have you.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that's why it's also really important to work on ourselves as changemakers is people trying to make a difference in recognize where maybe we're not receiving the help that is coming to us.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And also recognize the ego issues, the exPowers that are inside of US those inner blocks ones triggers you know blind spots Defense mechanisms struggles limiting beliefs, etc, that are inside of us.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that are preventing us from really allowing others to support us in because because it feels good for us, and because it actually feels good for them as well, believe it or not, so the final one is lack of self care.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So Oh, and I just want to throw in here, by the way, number two was number one, of course, was not not enough notice doing and being and number two is.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: not receiving help well think of how those also relate, if you feel like you're never doing enough or getting enough done imagine how would change if you actually allow yourself to receive help and doing it.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You could actually change the world a lot faster just want to throw it out there okay so finally not receiving i'm sorry I lack of self care.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: As changemakers and I think I might have talked about this before we can be so weak tend to be so outwardly focused.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: We see the world in terms of what do we need to fix, how can we fix this, what do we need to do you know what are the problems we need to solve.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so we can tend to be very or you know how are the who are the people we can help, and how can I help this person, so we tend to be very outwardly focused remember before I was talking about that one way street were just like well i'm helping you.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But I find that a lot of changemakers don't not nearly enough unless they're already in some kind of maybe mental health or coaching or some kind of space like this, like I like i'm in.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Rarely do enough introspection rarely do enough tuning in and noticing how they're feeling and not only that.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: valuing how they're feeling as well, because those of us who are trying to change the world can tend to.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know, basically like convince ourselves that, no, no, no, like how I feel does it matter, because there are starving kids here or there's a war torn area here, or what have you, we are very I will say for myself i'm this may apply to us well.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Very good at dismissing our own feelings.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: i'm very I used to be very, very good at dismissing my own feelings and diminishing how I felt because I didn't feel like I deserve to feel that way because I thought, like there are so many other people in the world who were struggling and suffering.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And all but also because I really felt like I wasn't helping anybody like I was so driven to help people.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That I feel like I was in helping anybody if I was actually focusing on myself and helping myself and working on myself and healing myself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That was back during that dark night of the soul, when I you know with I just felt so unworthy in general, but then I also felt so like.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I did, that I didn't deserve to work on myself because other people needed my help, and I just wanted to focus on them until Finally, it just hit me this one day.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I had this it was like a voice in my head That said, I may have shared this in the show before what if, by healing yourself your healing others.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And what if, by healing yourself you're healing the world what if I actually I would say in my words today, I would say, what if doing your inner work enables you to do even greater greater good in the world.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And so it's that that a lot of times as changemakers and mission driven people were so focused on our mission and our objectives and our goals that we rarely turn inwards.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And do the self care that's necessary do the introspection do the do the inner work and do the self care and i'm going to argue.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that a lot of times that self care when we think of self care we think in terms of like well I just need to like.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know i'm going to get my nails done i'm going to get a massage and that's fantastic because that can really bring a lot, a lot of peace relaxation that's good for the body to relieve the tension.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But self care is so much more than just like you know physical physical.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: tending to your physical body really is about you know whether it's meditation or whether it's doing the drawing out as I often teaching, you know that I teach in my work.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And really noticing those parts of you that need your attention that need to be honored whether it's paying you're feeling.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You know wounds that you've got or even Defense mechanisms that are trying to get a message to you because maybe you keep manifesting things keep happening, the same patterns keep happening over and over again.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Because you're really not stopping long enough to really tune in and here's the cool thing, obviously, is that when you actually do that inner work.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And you feel more whole and at peace on the inside it's a whole lot easier to make a difference in the world you're clear you're stronger you're wiser you're more courageous.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: So that inner work when you actually do that, and you pay attention to yourself and honor.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Who, you are, how you feel and, whatever your Truth is guiding you to do rather than what you think you should do, but it's guiding you to do.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that's when you can really make the biggest difference in the world, so those three struggles, not enough business not receiving help.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Excuse me and lack of self care, I hope, this has been helpful for you, and it really do hope that you'll sit and excuse me and burping all of a sudden, I really do hope.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: That you will sit with these three and just notice how these show up for you.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: And you know, maybe you've mastered one but you're still working on another but also look at some of the deeper I always argue look at some of the deeper emotional subconscious things that are happening inside of you that are causing you to have these struggles, as I mentioned Wounded.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Controllers Defenders, you may have these parts that are actually causing you to risk refuse help from other people are not recognize that sometimes when it shows up.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: that are causing you to think that you're never doing enough or to feel like.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You aren't enough that you don't that you know aren't talented enough or whatever it is, to actually do what you're here to do that's why I always say.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You have all of the power, you need to be everything you're here to be it doesn't mean you're here to do it all by yourself.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: But whatever presence you're here to be in the world you've already got that inside of you, and so you are enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: You are enough, just as you are, and the way you can truly come to know that, though, is by honoring these parts that may be making you feel like you're not enough.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: we're causing you to not receive the help that is here for you the help and the support and then, of course, finally, you know really knowing that you are worthy.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: of caring for know that you are worthy of being taken care of you are worthy of the time and attention other people's time and attention.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: To really and your own time and attention to really focus inward and really honor the Truth of who you are and how you feel and what you need what you need emotionally mentally physically spiritually.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: To continue your work in the world in the highest way possible.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I hope this has been helpful Thank you so much again i'm Emily Eldredge with change life to change like Community you're always welcome to join us in there.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: I do all kinds of fun things you've got i've got the course they teach you all the good stuff the Inner Work for Greater Good.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: As well as doing interviews and i've got weekly Q amp a sessions and good stuff like that, so I hope you'll join us in there.
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Emily Eldredge | ChangeLight: Just go to change like that world that's how you'll get there www dot change like that world all right Thank you so much, and you have a wonderful week i'll see you next week bye.
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